she got a sentimental thing for me
she’d tell you she’s liberal–for all human emancipation
down with the struggle
you know–for rights and self determination
would sing the tune of justice before any integration
but she can’t respect my boundaries
when I first said no to your pressure
for us to meet
got my number
yes! you know how to follow your slave
of trying to get off the goddamn plantation
What you need to see Missy Anne?
that I’m in a ditch?
in a ravine?
still shiftless as can be?
that I’m jobless?
poor and hungry?
that I’m still so black?
so loud mouthed?
or that no one really likes me?
that I get no respect?
Missy Anne you done travelled all the way out!
What kinda high you getting off of seeing me?
was it such a surprise, that I survived
that I made it through alive?
‘Cause you’re prattling along
“Everything’s still nice
…we doing good
…fighting the good ole fight
…but we getting along
…you know how it is
…do you still keep in touch?”
Now, now Missy Anne you know what’s up!!!
the possibility of you leaving the security of your lies
the sharp tongues of denial
I wrote my letters
cried my tears
quivered and quaked
through all the heart break
that my work didn’t measure
that I was not worth my salt
speak my truth
hold my own
that you wanted to hear what I had to say
and if I needed a break
it was a terrible mistake
‘cause clearly I needed to know my rightful place
such a tawdry discredit, to my race
and you made sure to snipe,
“Even John Brown knew what’s right!
and look at you you’re black
you should struggle harder for your people!”
while you sit perched unconcerned
with keeping the playing field equal
with your theory without practice
with your this
throwing my hurt in my face
made your case on why I should to stay
“out there is cruel
out there’s much worse
so it’s best that you stay
Lest you want to be alone
Come on now!
I know you all gossip about your slaves
you know how I left all hurt and frayed
so what you want to really set your eyes on?
a vindication that you weren’t wrong?
What you need to say Missy Anne, what ever could it be?!!!!???!!
‘Cause I wasn’t checking for you, you were checking for me
What?! did you think I’d spill my guts
tell you how I had hated the manipulation
while you quietly agree–
can’t tarnish your genteel sensibilities!
to how the Master causes you stress
lay your head in my bosom and call me “Mammy?”
are you still giving in to those narc tendencies?
to bring back information, to the good ole plantation?
and fulfill your true role as Missy Anne indeed!
Or better yet
Do you need me to give some sort of explanation?
to poke and prod at all my beliefs?
check something wrong with my thinking?
so you can laugh during tea time with your friends
“Ha! she’s still as stupid as the day she left,
we were right all along she ain’t got no good sense.”
Did you want to see me stutter?
Would you like it if I showed deference
use my “emotions” to say I’m politically inept?
Just not ready yet?
sitting atop your white horse
“Well she ain’t a fit enough breed of course!”
Missy Anne I’ve gone through the scenarios
of what all this means
but you still sit puttering
and this is so confusing
for someone who would preach
that my silence is fatal
so why you do you want to meet?
‘Cause there’s gotta be more
than small talk about the weather
oh yes Missy Anne
I forgot you too clever!
you often like to hear my thoughts
to undercut and shame
when you need someone there
and target for your inadequacy
you remember my words and thrash brutally
well to tell you my thoughts
no I will not
and perhaps that’s why you’re sitting
and yes I’m fine, to your surprise
and yes of course,
supremacy knows no boundaries
quite similar to yourself if you know what I mean
so yes life at times ain’t so peachy keen
and I’ve given all I will to this conversation
any more time and I’ll ask for due compensation
so if it’s your shame
you need to heal
well let me just keep it real
i’ve suffered enough fools
and you know the deal
I ain’t magical
don’t carry cure all elixirs
to aid you in your quest for your own liberation
Missy Anne I declare you just head on back to that good ole plantation!!!!!